I'm baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack......
An unplanned vacation? Life changing experiences? One crazy twist and turn after another on the emotional rollercoaster that is life?
I managed to open the store. I almost quit my job twice, I've moved and made other changes in my life, but still I am not happy with who I am physically. I attempted to starve my way into nothing, which caused the first instance of me trying to quit my job. I also didn't drop very low at all. I've eaten tons of garbage food this past week and planning on getting back 'on track' tomorrow.
October 1st.
I will be 15lbs lighter from tomorrow morning by Dec 31st. Screw the gaining muscle, I want skinny. I'll get lean later.
Obviously, I'm hoping I'm 150 tomorrow, but I doubt it, given the way I have eaten today. I would like to see sub 140 by Christmas. I did it last year after much starving.... I can do it again.
Plans:
To still eat. When I don't things get stupid.
To have one cheat per week. Not go crazy, just one cheat.
Cut back on carbs, keep protein up but not high.
Add back in the salads.
No problems with soup.
No drinking calories
Goal number one: 145 by October 31st. (will be revised if I hit that early)
Tomorrow will take measurements.
Will use my fitnesspal to log EVERYTHING eaten.
Stay under 1000 cals unless it's a cheat.
One day under 500 cals.
2 L water per day.
Weights at least twice a week, cardio at least 5 times a week (weather dependant.... it's gonna get nasty soon!). Eat more on days I workout.
Sound good?
Oh how I missed this.
I will be skinny.
I will be thinner.
I will be able to have control over myself.
