Beginnings

I've discovered I love to blog. I really love taking time each day to write a bit about what's in my head, what I'm doing, what my plans are. Most of my thoughts are revolving around a few things but I will strive to ensure I put something personal and about my day in each entry.

Who am I? I am a Green Day fan, guitar player, once upon a time writer, ex cyclist, gym enthusiast, punk with a shaved head, lover of nature, fiercly independant and slightly fucked up. I wouldn't be sitting here at 146lbs thinking I'm FAT if I wasn't slightly fucked up.

So there we have it. I used to smoke, still enjoy 'partaking', and know what it takes to drop 50lbs. I also know what it will take to drop more. What are my goals? I don't know. Right now, I just want to get under 140, get down to 135 as I've been trying for months to do so. Then, who knows. I'd like to see 125, maybe 119.... then see what I think. I'd like to hit 125 by July. That gives me 4 months to lose 20lbs, 5lbs a month should be doable (I say that and I've done nothing but bounce around the same damn 10lbs the past 3 months....)

I move in 2 days. I'm not organized enough for this. Tomorrow I need to organize for storage, finish packing all my shit, and pick up the uHaul. In all of that I have to hit the bank, perhaps get more boxes, get rid of the chair and desk (stupid people aren't getting back to me.) and head to the gym.

In 4 days I will turn my life upside down, and for someone that hates change, it's a pretty terrifying thing. I will move out of my place of the last almost 4 years, move to a new city, lose my gym and my trainer, lose my friends and start anew. I'm excited at the same time. It's time to start again. I will continue at the 'new' gym, take the classes I've come to love. I will be able to continue to train on my own and push myself to new limits. I will be living with a friend, then moving into another lady's house were I will be able to control what I eat with more ease. I will be able to save a ton of money and pay down debt.

Today.... I managed to eat almost nothing until after the gym where I ate some of last nights leftover salmon, broccoli and 3 bites of brown rice. I probably would have stopped there but a friend took me out to see a movie (Kings Speah, was AWESOME!) so I ate popcorn, M&M peanuts and Sweedish Berries, drowning them all in a diet Pepsi. Workout was ok, but it felt like we ran through everything really quickly. Tomorrow I plan to again eat nothing until post workout and then still just a yogurt and maybe some strawberries before they go bad. Perhaps some soup?

We shall see what tomorrow brings, but I hope for no snow. Surely it's time for spring now!!!