I'm fat. I've eaten so much. I've undone all the work from this past week.
I will be lucky to be 145 by monday. Yup, 2 days from now I won't be at my HIGH WEIGHT from last week.
Fuck.
I'm also going to start leaving food on my plate at every meal. No more finishing my plate. Every single meal.
The discussion on bulimia was brought up briefly today after I disappeared for about the fifth time after eating, to yes, purge.
They were pissing around... I hope. Must be more careful in the future.
I feel disgusting. I wish I hadn't eaten. I wish I would have skipped lunch, snacks, and everything else I shoved in my mouth today.
Pancake breakfast tomorrow. Not clearing my plate. Will control what I eat.
I have to learn.
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